Either/Or

Another reading for me. I'm sharing it as it may be helpful to another.

The pain you are feeling now is of your own doing and not what we would want for you. The joy you felt just the other day is still there with you if you but open your eyes and heart to it. This path that you walk isn't easy, but it is no more difficult than anyone else's though it certainly feels that way to you now. Your road is rich with an abundance of blessings that are always with you whether you are aware of them or not.

The loneliness you feel is related to the deep chasm you have within your own heart about what you want out of life. You want freedom and the ability to do as you please; you want another who holds your same vision in life to partner with you and cradle you through the darkness of your fears. You see these two as being either/or, one or the other, and constantly shift your being from desiring one over the other. This is where your path has become twisted and difficult for you to traverse as you cannot decide what you ultimately want.

There is no wrong or right or perfect thing other than what you choose to bring into your own world. You seek to give, give, give but have a dearth of learning when it comes to receiving. Always proud, always independent, always striving to be on your own and need no one person for no one thing. This core belief is what has caused you so much damage through your years and one that we would like to see you rid yourself of.

The heart of the majestic can only beat when it is fully rested, relaxed, and nourished. Right now, the turmoil you have brought yourself blocks your ability to love fully, to love without condition, to love even yourself. Stretch beyond the limits you have placed upon yourself and meet us as we will provide all that you need to recover from the difficulty you have caused yourself.

Tell us what you want and we will bring that to you, but be firm in your heart, mind, and soul. Know that you are ready for this next level of challenge. Have faith in yourself and know that you are fully prepared for the next steps that await you.